One year ago... Spring break.

One year ago, I was getting back in the grind from spring break. It was a semi-typical spring break for us. Jimmy took most of the week off so we could spend it together. We took a day trip to Monroe, LA, and we went to Buck Commander/Duck Commander, a zoo, and just drove around some. I remember being sad some. I talked to a friend most of the way through the zoo, processing and discussing our decision to walk away from domestic infant adoption (DIA) and Foster teens. We had been discussing since November that maybe we had misread what God wanted for us. Maybe it wasn't DIA maybe it was to Foster. We knew there was a big need for families willing to take older children and maybe that was His calling. Well actually up until spring break we were planning a straight adoption of a child legally free for adoption from Foster Care (FC). However during our discussions with friends and agencies during spring break we decided on a change to pure FC (meaning children that might not be legally free for adoption). It was this week though one year ago that we were discussing when to close our file with the DIA agency and couldn't get peace. I was excited and nervous but sad because it's hard to let go of a dream. I was reconciling with myself the change of pace we were making. I was the one who started these conversations but I was the first to want to question them. (Jimmy however takes longer to come to the decision but remains incredibly steadfast once he gets there).

I remember us discussing how we couldn't get peace to close all of a sudden even though we were confident in our decisions. We never thought we would get the call but we were just riding the home study out. It was this time one year ago that those simple decisions would change our life. We just had no clue.