So imagine my complete joy when a mere six weeks ago, I realized that not only were we bringing our daughter home in less than a week, but finally I would be able to celebrate this long awaited day. My hopes and prayers had been answered.
However, I didn't know how bittersweet I would feel today; that there would be a whole new dimension to my feelings. See my greatest joy is someone else's greatest loss. The child who is learning to call me mommy was born to another woman. My gain came through her pain. And before you tell me it was her choice (and please don't. It doesn't help. It only upsets me more because I know things you don't, I saw things you didn't) realize that not all choices are easy. Sometimes you choose what you think is best regardless of how easy or hard it is. It's part of being a grown up and a parent.
I have no greater joy than being Alicia Grace's mommy. I have held, loved on, cuddled, and kissed my sweet angel today and relished in the fact that I finally get to celebrate today.
And I have prayed for our dear D, who bravely, sacrificially, and selflessly placed our daughter in our arms and gave us the reason to celebrate today.
What a vision of Christ's amazingly sacrificial love. That He gave his only Son so that we could be adopted as His sons and daughters.
So to all moms who give so much everyday Happy Mother's Day! To the women that are longing to become moms: you are not alone, I understand, and I am praying for you. To the moms who have babies in heaven or those who have moms in heaven: I can never imagine. You also have a special place in my prayers. And finally to the birthmoms/ first moms out there: there are no words for my gratitude and respect. Thank you.
Happy Mother's Day!!!
