and the wait is extended

So I made a monumental mistake recently. I forgot until last minute to send in some reservation paperwork for a class that we need to take with the agency. Sounds like a small mistake right? Wrong! The class is full and we have to wait for another class. Once again, no big deal right? Wrong! It messes everything up. As of March 12, you can no longer get homestudy approved until you have taken this class. The next class isn't until June 9th 2 1/2 hours away. And most grant applications are due May 31, with homestudy approval. So now our wait is extended over 2 months for approval and I don't know what I'm gonna do about grants. So yeah, this was pretty monumental. In all honesty, I thought I sent it off, but sent off another just in case. But no, apparently I did forget. This caused mental breakdown and depression. People say just wait, and pray for a speedy process, but I've waited longer than most people can imagine ande I slowed the process down and made it much longer. This is really really frustrating. I know that there is always a plan and that there are silver linings to every cloud, but sometimes it's hard to see it. I found a pin on pinterest today that said: "I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it." I found it before this happened and needed it when it did happen. Today, I'm thankful for a husband who understands that what sounds like something minor and unimportant is very important to me and is a big deal. This will really slow us down. Now I have to pray for even more patience as waiting is very hard.

Finally...the package is ready

The paperwork is done! It only took six weeks to complete it but finally yesterday we completed all of our paperwork and it is ready to send off. There is one page that I need to get white out to fix my mistakes, but other than that it is stacked and ready to go. I'm not sure if I'm gonna try to make the post office or split the envelopes. Probably the latter, knowing me I won't be able to get off work in time. So, I think I'll take the safe side and just split the work in envelopes. So glad it's finally over. Now we just have to hope and pray we are accepted and that we can complete our homestudy. So, anyway... Now to more waiting. I've got to find time to start on our profile book as well. Work is really busy so I have to literally carve out time... but it's so totally worth it.

Today at church I was sitting behind two little girls.... watching them and keeping them from being too loud. I did this a few weeks ago as well. It really made me sit there and think about the day it'd finally be our child. I'm scared we won't be accepted, but thrilled about what God may have in store. Waiting is seriously the hardest.